Some time ago, I was talking here about my doubts of drawing. I can say now, after a refreshing moment that’s gone, at least for a while. And it shows how we can change our minds so quickly just thinking it’s possible. I am just happy with my skills. I don’t feel that I have to decide between this and that. I can draw whatever I want, when I want, who I want… it has nothing to do with being professional or not. Who knows what’s the purpose of life? Why should I care about something that no one knows what’s the best? I was only creating monsters and even worst, feeding them.
But now I just rescued what I feared it got lost in the past. I am ENJOYING drawing again. It’s not a burden, it’s a privilege. While I am feeling sad or happy, I can draw it. It demands an INNER positive thought that I am able to do it… no matter what other people say. They can’t do it for me. A drawing can’t be made alone, without someone looking after. You have to go there and make it. Actually, it’s pretty much the same when it comes to other situations of real life. If you are in a bad moment, if everything is crashing down, and your hope seems to be gone… it’s about your own choice. Just moaning, complaining won’t solve your problem. You must decide to change it for yourself and not to accept your defeats as unbreakable. Or your life will be just a veil between your birth and death.

I took my own little journey. I decided the three latest drawings would be made together. Mostly because it’s a reunion of my favorite subjects: Aragorn from my all time favorite movie and book; Lacrimosa, my beloved favorite band, and Jack… well, he’s the captain! So, about a month ago, while all the illusionary suffering was created, I started sketching them. I can’t deny they were difficult at first. There were times that I just wanted to bang my head on wall and asked why I had to be so mad. And now, when some people ask me which tools I use to draw, I answer: pencils, eraser, patience and madness. You have to be a bit mad to challenge yourself, or you will never walk a step more. Do you know those moments that you face something but it looks too much for you? Try it. Some scary things are not too scary if you look closer.
I am just happy with all that I’ve done. It’s been even a bit melancholic that I won’t be working on them anymore, but there will be other chances in the future.

For now, I will take a little break. After all this time, focused on those works, I just forgot about other things. Haha I have books to be read, films to be watched… I left those behind, and now I have to return to the track. Probably it won’t last more than few weeks, I guess. I am so inspired by Aragorn’s drawing, so I will do more LOTR stuff, FOR SURE. Be prepared.
I’m gonna take care of my health too which has been not so good lately. =/ So I need to take some rest, indeed.

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