Heya!

I had to come to talk about AVATAR!
Only two movies have blown my mind until yesterday: "Titanic" (my first big screen experience) and "The Return of the King" (which none will beat, for sure). But AVATAR takes you to another world. You have to think it is real, or it will be annoying. Believe me, you will not want to be fooled. When you see that world for the first time, you immediately fall in love. It's amazing. The Visual Effects (Thanks WETA!!!) are almost flawless, and the characters' movings/expressions are credible! I can't say too much because I don't want to spoil anything, but go see it! Really... if you don't like this kind of film, it's ok, but it's very enjoyable. Almost three hours that seems less than one!

I didn't like the soundtrack when I listened to it for the first time... It sounds like Titanic themes, but now I love it! James Horner did a great job... no surprise if it wins an Oscar. Besides, this year had not too many great OSTs, except Angels and Demons By Hans Zimmer (his new soundtrack for the Sherlock Holmes movie is nothing but disappointing. It gets some nice moments, specially the main theme, but nothing else to add to it. Maybe it will change with more listening, but still). Back to AVATAR soundtrack... it was even more amazing due to the theater sound system. PERFECT! The music enters into your mind and gives you shivers! I also wanted to see it in 3D, BUT it only has dubbed copies here in my city, and I HATEEEEE dubbed movies! It's awful. I will not pay for it.

But of course, nothing is perfect. There are some things which I had to be more cynical. The storyline is not the most original ever, as you may guess. I know people are comparing to other past movies, which is totally appropriated. It really seems like them, while it's a post-modern version. But in the end, it has no other source. You cannot know exactly how the Earth is and how people are thinking in 2154, except those ones who are in Pandora. Maybe the only chance for Jake redemption was to enjoy with the Na'vi people indeed. And it has some ecologic value too. Now it seems very actual for some.
But there is no greeeeat story to tell. The things among the characters decisions are straight and predicable from the beginning to the end. I didn't find myself into that, I still prefer some traditional battles with swords and horses.
On the other hand, the experience is amazing, no doubt. The movie as a whole is outstanding, one of the best that I've seen so far.

I can't forget to say that this right week it's my third DA birthday! And I've got almost 50.000 pageviews so far! Thanks a lot for everyone who sends me nice and encouraging comments through all these years!

And now, last but not least...
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR FOR ALL MY WATCHERS AND FRIENDS!!! HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL HERE FOR MORE THREE YEARS!!!

From now on, I think I am gonna be less active here, more than I've already been... it's because of busyness, and I really have no time to draw! Wish I could, but I will make my best to do something from time to time.
Although, I am SO HAPPY right now!!! Everything is going well that I could not complain!
So if I delay to answer it's because I can't spend so much time online... but no worries, I won't forget to check DA every now and then.

My latest drawing is one of the most special that I've ever made. It's full of messages and feelings... I had to stop it several times because of that. But in the end, I left you with this one because it's all we are about: friends.
_{Don't forget about them... or they will forget you.}

Thank you for all support!

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Leave a comment if you want. You're welcome}

First, I want to thank everybody for giving me "Happy b-days" and everything. You're all amazing people. It feels really good.

So, here it is... it's just a bit long... but I felt I should share my thoughts too, like anyone else. Firstly, I am NOT a die hard fan of Twilight; I didn't even read the books, so I wanna make clear that I'm just expressing my feelings concerned to the movies and its content. It's only an honest opinion, and if you have a little time to waste, I want to know your words about the subject too, if you don't mind.
I just watched the New Moon today, because a friend of mine persuaded me. I've already watched the first one and the funniest thing was that I kept a grin on my face everytime... I found it very weird. I didn't know if I liked it or not. It made me feel uncomfortable.
When I watched the trailer of the new movie, I thought I should give a second try, because I felt some empathy, but... it happened again! The grin kept on there for more two hours long. Sometimes I wanted to laugh out loud, but yeah... I just couldn't stand. It's just funny. Everything.
The acting of some is terrible; there's just a relief when Michael Sheen shows up, but it's too late (besides his part is very, very small). Bella already made it so boring. I wonder if Bella is boring by herself or if Kristen makes it hard... I can't see any sigh of emotion in her eyes at all. Really hard to believe that Bella loves Edward as much as she says it. Actually, there are a lack of many things: no suspense, no chemistry, no action, no good sound... no good dialogs! GOSH! The dialogs are pretty ridiculous sometimes. And the actors seem to forget it every time, take a breath to recover themselves and it sounds irritating.
The soundtrack is another low point. I must say the Twilight Soundtrack Score was fantastic! Carter Burwell created a wonderful and captivating theme for the movie, and I dare say it was the best part of everything, in my humble opinion. But WHY did they hire Alexandre Desplat??? The soundtrack alone goes well... a bit slow, but still. But on the movie it simply disappeared! I expected more exciting moments, but nothing hit the top. I missed the thing. It's a lame for me. Sometimes I just go to the cinema to listen to the soundtrack that loud...
Jacob is probably one of the things that I liked. NO! It's not because of his constant shirtless! But he looks like being the only one who incorporated it better. And yeah... I prefer wolves than vampires. ha... ha. ¬¬
Edward... I don't understand why people love him too much. I truly don't think Robert is beautiful. He is kinda weird, actually (and then the girls want to kill me slowly right now... hahaha).
Actually, why do people love the whole thing so much? Why do they go crazy? I'm sure there are elements that involve people deeply, but I can't see a good reason to be so fanatic yet. I mean... humans feel attracted by impossible things... like impossible love stories. They idealize it. It's an escape, something that you can dream of, when real life is a damn real life indeed. But seriously, is there anything really impossible for the characters? I mean... we all know that they find a stupid solution to make everything easier. Bella just renounces being human and wanted to be transformed. Does she not have another thing to care for? It's just Edward? I know it's just a teenage story, but my point is that could be more explored and discussed. Edward had a glance of reality but then in the end he says something like "I can't live in a world that you don't exist"! OH GOD... give me a moment, please. That's why I said I missed a suspense. A bad side of the character, you know? Then he left Bella and went to Rio! I was WTF?! I wonder how could a vampire go to the sunniest city in this world? Frankly... he should go to Curitiba, at least...

Anyway... you want to bash me right now, I know. But don't be hasty at judging. I liked the movie! Both of them. Like I said, I wanted to see the sequel or I just wouldn't do it. I wouldn't be easily persuaded if it'd been a terrible experience. I felt that it's a good story to tell. It's different, lighter and brighter than other vampires sagas. More innocent and silly too, but why not? We are stupid human beings in our essence. Obviously, I can't blind myself that's amazing, but I will watch the next one. At least, if everything fails, the ticket is cheap.

Yeah!
Today is my birthday again!!!
_{I'm getting tired of it! We should celebrate it once every five years...}

24 years old...

Seems now the time runs faster than ever!
For my luck, I look younger... that's what people say to me hehe
Yeah... today has been weird and nothing special yet. But my mom gave me a really cool and original gift: it's an air conditioner!!! WoW! I just can't believe it! haha That'll be veeeery useful because my bedroom is a sauna and the days have been hot enough! ¬¬

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Did I make a blog??? I never thought I would do it someday. So, I don't know yet how it will be managed in the future, but hope you will check it every now and then. Be sure you are welcome!
For now, I posted some wips and a close up of my Jack Sparrow drawing. [link]
Hope you like it!

I'm working on next drawing, but I don't have a clue when it'll totally be done. I wanted to finish it before my birthday, but it wasn't possible. I had some impediments through whole last week and it delayed. It's been cool so far, while I am not too satisfied yet... it means that won't be here until next month, unfortunately. But it's still special and involves many feelings for me.

C-ya! Have a good day!

Some time ago, I was talking here about my doubts of drawing. I can say now, after a refreshing moment that’s gone, at least for a while. And it shows how we can change our minds so quickly just thinking it’s possible. I am just happy with my skills. I don’t feel that I have to decide between this and that. I can draw whatever I want, when I want, who I want… it has nothing to do with being professional or not. Who knows what’s the purpose of life? Why should I care about something that no one knows what’s the best? I was only creating monsters and even worst, feeding them.
But now I just rescued what I feared it got lost in the past. I am ENJOYING drawing again. It’s not a burden, it’s a privilege. While I am feeling sad or happy, I can draw it. It demands an INNER positive thought that I am able to do it… no matter what other people say. They can’t do it for me. A drawing can’t be made alone, without someone looking after. You have to go there and make it. Actually, it’s pretty much the same when it comes to other situations of real life. If you are in a bad moment, if everything is crashing down, and your hope seems to be gone… it’s about your own choice. Just moaning, complaining won’t solve your problem. You must decide to change it for yourself and not to accept your defeats as unbreakable. Or your life will be just a veil between your birth and death.

I took my own little journey. I decided the three latest drawings would be made together. Mostly because it’s a reunion of my favorite subjects: Aragorn from my all time favorite movie and book; Lacrimosa, my beloved favorite band, and Jack… well, he’s the captain! So, about a month ago, while all the illusionary suffering was created, I started sketching them. I can’t deny they were difficult at first. There were times that I just wanted to bang my head on wall and asked why I had to be so mad. And now, when some people ask me which tools I use to draw, I answer: pencils, eraser, patience and madness. You have to be a bit mad to challenge yourself, or you will never walk a step more. Do you know those moments that you face something but it looks too much for you? Try it. Some scary things are not too scary if you look closer.
I am just happy with all that I’ve done. It’s been even a bit melancholic that I won’t be working on them anymore, but there will be other chances in the future.

For now, I will take a little break. After all this time, focused on those works, I just forgot about other things. Haha I have books to be read, films to be watched… I left those behind, and now I have to return to the track. Probably it won’t last more than few weeks, I guess. I am so inspired by Aragorn’s drawing, so I will do more LOTR stuff, FOR SURE. Be prepared.
I’m gonna take care of my health too which has been not so good lately. =/ So I need to take some rest, indeed.

Thank you soooo much for wonderful comments, all favs and watches!!! I never thought it would get so far!