I hope you figure it out soon! I still haven't figured out what I want to do either! I think I'm loosing some of my inner passion for drawing, I just don't feel the way I used to anymore. If geology is your true passion, go for it!

I love so many things, psychology, holistic medicine, astrophysics, quantum physics, biology, neurology, but I just don't think I have the brains or love for math to pursue some of those. All of us have slumps, you can always draw on the side.

Hope your shoulder feels better

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Quite hard desition to make... I'd say you should talk with your parents and show them that you are really into it once, twice and all times needed, maybe at some point they'll agree
I really like DSO, in fact, I saw them on monday and yes, they are reaaally good

I hope the pain of your shoulder goes away quickly

Being someone who never think further than tomorrow, if there're more than one options presented to me it's always the case of 'Which choice would make me wake up the happiest tomorrow?" and go from there. People keep telling me to make a plan for the future but to me I'd rather be happy for the choice I make for the time being instead of looking forwards to be 'happy' 5 years later.

I grew up having everyone told me how great an artist I could be if I chose to be one. They're wrong. I can't be an artist because everytime I thought about being one, about what I'd do as a 'real'artist, I lost all the fun and passion to draw. I'm too self-absorbed, self-centred to creat anything that has a real meaning to anyone else. I can't draw for the greater good of art. I can only draw the subject that either means something to me or relates to my personal interest. I really admire people who can draw for a living. I hope you can do something with your talent because you're so talented but if being a pro isn't for you then don't feel bad about it.

I hope your shoulder feels better.

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I realized drawing is all about "mind". I've been high and low lately, that's why I think being a pro would not work. I wish I could improve and try new things, but as a hobby. Besides, I also don't feel it as before. It's lost something. I want to rescue it, whatever it is.

I always liked math, physics, chemistry (which are the bases of Geology), so I have to study a lot but it wouldn't be a torture. But as it turned out difficult in the high school, I dropped them. Last year, I started studying Philosophy at university, because I like the subject too and it has nothing to do with that kind of science, but definitely it didn't work. haha But there, I realized I am very good in Logic. ^^ it's a good sigh.

Thanks! I hope to get better from now on.

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My mom supports me, with some observations. But my dad is very straight and short about it, so I would have to persuade him a bit more.

Really?? Wish I could see them live one day! They would love playing in Brazil since they like samba. Actually, a bit of it that they composed for "lucy Fears the morning star" ending was brilliant.
But I wonder who did the tenor vocals in the live show? As he sang in the album quite good.

Thank you! I hope that too!

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Thank you so much for the words, Kanisa!

I am the same way... I don't plan my life too much, I do what I feel it's right for now and it makes me happy. But in a way, it has a bad side too (actually, everything has one!) and sometimes I feel a bit anxious and it breaks me. I get lazy and without expectations. The problem is, I guess, I don't have a dream to follow. I mean, I wish I could have something to aim, to fight for. I don't want to be rich and famous , it's just looking for what I want. But mostly I only know what I don't want to.

I never understood why people think I am an "artist". It's funny to realize what I've probably become. I don't refuse the idea that I became something different after starting to make drawings, but I don't see myself as a future pro. I am like you, every time I think about doing it for a living, I lost my passion for it. Actually, I get lost easily thinking why I do certain things, so it would not turn out good. Even making drawings from my personal taste ends up being difficult, so I can't imagine myself trying to finish something totally random. Sometimes I find out myself thinking too much about the stuff, that maybe it would be good and I should give a try at least. But let's see... maybe I could change my mind or not.

Thanks!!! I hope that too because the pain is quite strong and irritating for now.

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I truly understand you. I can't draw but I have a talent for music so I could study it more deeply and maybe in some time be a singer or a piano player or something. That would be fantastic, imagine having your own band and be famous (biiig dream). But... My (maybe even bigger) dream is to be an evolutionary biologist. To travel the world and make lectures about it. To be known in my field of work. To... To do something big. Leave a mark on this world, if you know what I mean. But I'm still young and I don't know if I'm capable of completing my dream. It won't be easy. And it's the same with you, I think? Hard decisions to make...
I hope your shoulder gets better .
Hugs, Lenka

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You got a lot on your mind there I am sure eventually you will make a decision that will make you happy. Just sometimes it takes a lot of time.

I have been quiet but not forgotten about you, just in the middle of moving right now and still hope that the time soon will come where I can sit down and right you a huge note

Take care and you know where to find me if you need a listening ear

I see that your biggest dream is to do something to let your mark, whatever if it comes from music or science, right? ^^ I already had a similar dream about being a musician or singer... actually, it wasn't a dream just "how cool it would be", but I am not a singer or can't play any instrument very well I just play with pencils and it's enough!
Actually, there isn't a right age to decide what to do... many people start living their dreams after 40-50 years (it won't be our case, of course haha) but we can't let people put us down because our "dream is too big". I may suggest you keep dreaming both things! Even if you decide to do Biology, you can sing during your free time as a hobby, and maybe one day you get an real opportunity to make it bigger.
Thank you! Today I woke up better and hoping it will continue this way

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